The last night...

Well tonight is my last night as the person I have always been. Tomorrow, I will become the new me. And I'm not talking about personality or behavior. I mean the old me that was resigned to being fat her whole life. Who would never wear cute clothes again. Who would never shop in a "normal" store again. Tomorrow, I won't wake up skinny, but I will wake up and take a huge step towards getting myself there. Tomorrow, I get the tool that I need to help me achieve my goal of being able to shop in normal stores, having more of a selection of clothing. I know what my hubby is thinking as he reads this. He's thinking we're gonna go broke buying clothes and shoes when the weight is gone.. lol Not quiet babe. I promise to be reasonable with my shopping. ;)

I've had several people ask me today if I was nervous. I don't think nervous really describes what I'm feeling. I'm excited, scared, happy, and fearful. I think I'm just scared and fearful of the unknown. The unknown being surgery. I've never had surgery like this before, where I've been completely under sedation.  But I have faith that God will be watching over me while I'm in the OR, just as he will be watching over the doctor, and my family as they wait for word everything is fine.  So for my friends who pray, I would appreciate all the prayers I can get tomorrow. I will update with a blog, when I'm feeling up to it.. Hopefully I can post a short note tomorrow after surgery some time. My hubby will be keeping everyone updated on Facebook! See you guys on the flip side!

Friday, Friday...

So here it is the Friday before my surgery. I still feel like I have so much to accomplish between now and then. I'm trying to make sure my kids have everything they need for school done, and that they are taken care of while I'm in the hospital, and my husband is with me. Also trying to make sure when I come home from the hospital, I don't have to worry about much, except resting. I have washed every uniform piece my girls own so they have about 2 weeks worth of school clothes. I still have to decide what I am taking to the hospital. It won't be much. Probably just my tablet, phone, some pj bottoms, house shoes and socks. I plan to wear very comfy clothes to the hospital on Tuesday morning, and then wearing them home again Thursday.

My house for the most part is fairly clean. I have all the dirty dishes washed, all my clothes washed, most of my kids stuff washed, and my husband has to fin for himself on clothes for a while. LOL but he'll be fine.

Tomorrow each of my kids has a birthday party to go to. So we'll be pretty busy tomorrow, and then I work Sunday and Monday. So really, I only have tomorrow to finish getting everything ready. AHHHHH I can't believe it's almost here. Hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Preop, preadmit, and 6 days. Oh my!

So today was my pre op appointment with Dr. Bell. It was about half an hour. Most of that was with the nurse going over what meds to take the morning of surgery and what to expect while in the hospital. Dr. Bell came in for about 10 minutes went over all my paper work, and asked if I had any questions. I didn't. So he said see ya Tuesday. I got my paperwork I needed for my appointment at the hospital and was on my way.
Next was my preadmit appointment at the hospital. They warn you it can take up to 2 hours to complete, depending on what tests the ordering Dr is asking for. In my case i needed an EKG, cbc, and chem-12. They will do a type and screen on the morning of surgery because they are only good for 72 hours. I signed all my consents for the procedure. I will also have an EGD after surgery so Dr. Bell can make sure everything looks good. The pre admit nurse went over what to expect, and again what meds to take and not to take before surgery. She also gave me some great recommendations about protein powders. After all the the paperwork was complete, she handed me the cleanser i needed to use the night before and the morning of surgery. Then i waz done. It did take the full 2 hours in my case, but i had to sign a bunch of paperwork before i even got to the preadmit area. I was done by 2 pm.

After i finished all my appointments, i went and picked up my paperwork for my leave. I have all of it to complete. But its nothing to major.

I can't believe i am down to 6 days!  That is just around the corner! I guess thats all of my update for today.

7 days!

I have one week until my surgery! I am sooooo excited.. I just can't explain to you the emotions that are running through me. Tomorrow, I have my preop appointment at Dr. Bell's office, and right after I have my pre registration directly after that. Then I have to work tomorrow night. Thursday night, Sara is modeling at the mall, Friday I have a photo shoot with an amazing lady, and afterwards, we are going to the hockey game. Saturday we actually have nothing planned so far. Sunday and Monday I work, and then we are at Tuesday! This week is going to fly by!! I will write an update tomorrow after my appointments. I've been trying to keep all of my appointments and everything here, so others can know what to expect. Have a wonderful Tuesday night!

2 WEEEKS!!!

Today, I am officially 2 weeks out from surgery. At this time on the 11th, I should be getting settled into my hospital room. I feel like I have so much to do between now and then. I'm still looking for a good protein powder I like. I don't want to buy anything in bulk right now, because everyone says my tastes with change after the surgery. So does anyone have and recommendations for good protein powders? Flavored and non? I plan to add a little protein to everything.

One of Marty's customer's mom just had the surgery on Thursday. She was so sweet. She sent me a facebook message to let me know everything went well, and her recovery was going well. Later in the day, her son called (Marty's customer) to let him know that everything was good with her surgery as well, and to kind of give Marty a heads up on what to expect. They have changed the diet plan for after surgery now. Day 1 (day of surgery) nothing at all, day 2 (day after surgery) ice chips only, and even then they are very spread out, and very strict on how much you consume per hour. Day 3- soft foods (mashed potatoes, pudding, well cooked veggies etc etc). She also said it's very hard to get in all the fluids each day. I knew going into this it was going to be difficult. After surgery we have to drink 64oz of fluids a day (mostly water, but we can use crystal light as well). So if you see me carrying around a bottle, don't worry, its just so I always have it handy. :)

On another note, my girls started school yesterday. They really enjoyed their first day back. I think Sara is going to really enjoy kindergarten. She has an excellent teacher.

Well I guess that's it for today. Next week I will be packed with posts because I have my preop appointment, and preregistration at the hospital.

3 weeks and counting....

Well, here we are, 3 weeks out from surgery and so much to do! Next Monday, my girls go back to school, and my baby girl starts kindergarten. Where has the time gone? At least they will be in school when I have my surgery so that is one less thing I have to worry about. In two weeks, I have my preop appointment and my preadmission appointment at the hospital. I can't believe it's this close! So many emotions, some of which I'm not sure how to describe. I guess that's about it for today.

It's been a while...

So here we are, the middle of August, and I haven't updated in quiet some time. Things have been very hectic this summer, with all three of my girls being home. The last time I wrote, I had a set back with my surgery. Well I am happy to announce that my surgery is scheduled for September 11th! I'm very excited. I have been working towards this for over a year. I knew if I set my mind to it I could accomplish it.

I want to say thank you to some very special people. First and foremost, my loving husband Marty. Without his love and support, I wouldn't be where I am. I would have given up after the first go round, and probably put on more weight, and been more unhealthy. To my parents, thank you for being supportive. Having you back my decision to have this surgery means the world to me. Without your support and encouragement, I don't think I would have gone through with it. Knowing you believe in me, that I can make this work, is priceless. And to my many many many wonderful friends, and other family, your support is very important to me as well. This isn't just about me. And having everyone support me, and let me know they are routing for me, makes going into this surgery so much easier.

I will be updating again soon! I plan to stay on top of my blog, from here until forever.